Poem Number 143 - Scared - 28/7/1986

Emotions are such that make you feel happy and sad,

And at times, also sad,

How can I tell you how I feel?

It seems to me, sometimes unreal.

I do care and love you but how can I know, how long this will last?

But things change and time goes fast.

Yesterday, I was scared, “ will it or won’t it work out?” I asked myself,

The reply was to let time see itself out.

You say you love me,

But why is part of me, unbelieving.

I hope you will change my mind,

And make me see it is all you. All I need.

Will I ever see happiness that is what I ask myself, over and over again?

Till in my heart, it all starts to rain.

I feel that I do need to get away,

A place where there is no care or worry.

I do hope to get there in a hurry,

At the moment, I feel like a child, running wild.

I do believe it can last,

But things go so fast.

I feel you don’t still know the ‘real’ me,

I hope time will make you see,

The way to the heart,

That can tear apart emotions.

Should we fight about brutal things that don’t mean anything?

Maybe I still can’t control my feelings,

And so I will leave it up to you,

To see what you can do.